writing is good

I really want to start writing again. i had some words come to me in the car yesterday.

ocean city md.

salt water spray and marlboro cigarettes

waft through the air

smell of adolescence and hormones

boardwalk full of rotten wood and

cheap heavy metal t-shirts

some with fringe

coolers full of bud lite

line grimy polluted sand

umbrellas head to head

toe to toe

trash washing up in the water

hermit crabs climb over empty forgotten

potato chip bags

i long for this place

or maybe my youth?

monday

well mother's day was a day. it was nice but way busier than I wanted. I wanted to take a long nap but I think Patrick's mom enjoyed having us over so that was a nice mother's day.I had a good radio show. I tried using my new program for rhapsody on my laptop and i really like it. I wish my laptop had a longer battery time. i planted some mini tomato plants, sweet peas and bell peppers along with our growing lettuce in the back yard. I hope they all grow well. I have a strawberry pot out front too. I find gardening very calming. I like the thought of providing our own produce with no additives or spending way too much money for organic. anyway, still looking for a part time job. I have not stopped doing lucky cat but am on hiatus for now. It is really too much for me to put all my heart and soul into it the way i want. I have too much responsibilities with keenan, patrick and the dog and cat. Hopefully when keenan starts school next year i can focus a little more on what I really want to do for a career. I had a thought yesterday, to be a children's d.j., expand on cottleston pie. really, i would like to be able to someday have cottleston pie get picked up by a larger station, but I have a lot of voicework and production tightening to do to be able to do that. well, that is what has been on my mind. I need to work on the compilaltion soon. I have about six artists for sure and need to work on sponsors and funding more. i think i am becoming boring. well, more later. :)

first post

well, i'm not promising to be grammatically or politically correct but here is my first blog! I have a lot going on so I thought it would be nice to get some of it on, I was going to say paper but who uses that anymore? ha! It feels like whenever things get on a normal role, they change again and I am no closer to a career than when I graduated 10 years ago. I just don't know how to pry open that door or really what door to go to? I know what I want to do but with all the balls I am juggling it gets cloudy sometimes. being a mom is a number one priority, but I want to have something that I can do that is for me and that I feel like I am contributing to the world. maybe I am, I don't know. anyway, I guess it should be good enough to enjoy each day and then see where it takes me. well, there you go. blog no. 1 (sometimes i won't be so whiny)